A new chapter is about to begin in our life. The "empty nest".
The last bird leaves our nest this week to start his next big adventure,

FSU College of Music

 No longer am I the Orchestra mom, booster president, rehearsal manager, or PR go to person.

WHAT am I going to be?

My life diverged 30 years ago. Don't get me wrong I never wanted anything but my children. (not even a husband) though I have the best husband a wife could want. I am not sure why it feels like I am lost. Everyone says go back to your dream. But that feels childish somehow. 

I guess I am still a work in progress. 

Sometimes it seem that no matter what you do your children think your such a looser.

You can miss them till your heart aches and think that you finally will be able to have an adult conversation then"Pow" you screw up again and your dumb again.

Does't help that I am menopausal and hormonal. Just dumb.

Better luck next time. 

Have you noticed that while your looking at other peoples blogs you get very excited about the lives they are leading. Becoming enthralled at the fact that these "other" people have created a life SO amazing that even your best days can not compare to a moment of there regular day.

Are these people living a Better life? 

Not so sure.

But at least they seem to not share the same fears as I do. Fears that if you try and Fail  the world as you know it might end. 

Why can't I just find a way to care for the things that I want 

more than worry about the needs of those around me? 

" You Did What?"

I have been trying to find a place in my life that will allow me the financial freedom to do the things that I want to do. So yesterday I decided that I would get a "new" certification, This means taking another class(on top of the 5 I am already taking!). My wonderful husband could only say;  "You did what!?" and walked away. You have to love a man that is so totally confused and bewildered by you that he just has to turn around and go sit in another room. He follows me on my great adventures... Hiking through the mountains or going to see Lake Okeechobee just because I want to go!

He listens to my complaints about not having enough time to do all that I would like to do. And now, that our only daughter is getting married he listens to both of the women in his life and almost seems happy to do so. ( Did I tell you he is a great actor!)

So just in case I forget to tell you sweet heart. I Love YOU!!

Memorial Day

I hope that this Memorial day you have the time to pause and reflect on the sacrifices of those that fought for freedom without question. May we all be truly grateful.

Creating Time

I have recently discovered that I must find the time to do the things that bring me great joy.

 FAMILY

That by benighning them I was not being true to myself.



So this blog is the first step in my journey to rediscover my life on a cstring. 

I hope that you will ride along with me on this adventure.